I'm Yours

Since my beloved 60GB iPod died-ed on me within days of arriving on this side of the world [i'm sure that was a A sign], i've relied on borrowing Boobers iPod or using the radio on my Sony Ericsson.

Moving on.

So this morning i was on my way to the station and i stumbled upon a song that immediately brought a smile to my face... A tune i will definitely put in my Feel-Good Song category. Hmmm... I can't help but think i should be frolicking outdoors barefoot. I picture an icy-cold, alcoholic beverage in one hand... and my Bunny in the other.

Oh.

It's moments like these when you notice the shade of blue in the sky and can appreciate the warmth of the sun on ones skin. And whatever issues revolves around you seems to disappear and for that split moment is... is... perfect.

Sigh. Yes. I feel am loved.

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

P.S. We have wild strawberries growing in the back garden
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And they're YUMMY!

Pause

I have no real explanation why my daily dribbles on this blog became further apart. I guess just like my job, i needed some Time Out. I think i came to the point where anything i "thought" would be interesting ended up sounding forced and by the time i had the urge to even start typing i already got bored. Not exactly a great way of grabbing ones' audience.

My day begins by hitting the Snooze button one too many times on my Sony Ericsson just so i could sneak in those extra 9 minutes between 8:00 and 8:27. Then i spend the whole morning learning a new language. Then spend the rest of the day studying it.

Yes i know, i've become somewhat of a nerd. A nerd that doesn't get 100% on her tests but averages... 83%. I think i deserve SOME bit of credit! But i am somewhat confident that i will ONE DAY be able to blabber foreign words from my mouth AND be certain people understand me.

Time.

That's all i need. A factor that seems to work well with most things.

Words, that clearly 4 months ago i thought were just made up, are slowly embedding themselves in my brain. I often wish i had a photographic memory, it would make studying so much easier. Frustrating at times but nobody said it was going to be easy. Still i can't believe it's been nearly 3 months that i've been attending this Language School. And with another 3 months to go till i complete A2, i can't help but be amazed that I actually understand what i'm reading... not 100% but it gets me by.

It's like anyone can say Life is hard and most people will have a sad story to tell. But i guess what makes the most difference are those people who are able to stand up for what they believe in, be it themselves, their relationship and/or their point of view. I guess if one never tries, one will never know.

Flashbacks of the murder, conflicting characters and my emotional state during the last few months of 2007 had installed for me seem... so far away. I can't believe we're already half way through the year! I don't think i look much different, apart from the hair length but i could say i feel somewhat more focused.

I haven't done any works of Art or had any late night inspirations for any Designery pieces in months. Oddly enough i feel at ease, this break was what i needed to rejuvenate. Perhaps the key factor is that i'm not being told that my work is shit on a daily basis, has a lot to do with it... hmmm. But to be honest, a part of me worries about the stresses and language difficulties that awaits me when i return to the Design World and THAT makes me hesitant to return.
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But who knows what will happen 3 months from now!?

Well i do... sort of, even though it's just a Plan, i know i'm moving forward. Nothing is set in concrete, i'm we're pretty damn certain i'm we're heading the right direction that's all. One can't ever be certain what lies ahead of us, what's important is both parties have the same goal.

And basing it on the progress, i know one thing for sure and that is, i found a happiness that i thought i could never find. [And yes i know i've said Never Say Never Because It Always Happens, but in that context it makes complete sense and i'm glad that it did happen].