There seems to be a sudden trend in getting married/engaged. Of late i know of 6 marriages, all in the past 3 months. And with babies sprouting here and there, i find myself cruising the aisles looking for infant presents as opposed to grown up gifts. Proof that we're all getting older.
I won't lie and say i'm fine. I'm more disappointed than anything else.
Maybe it's the fact that he didn't have enough balls to pick up the phone and say, "hey Chris, guess what..." and instead chose to send a sms only after i sent him one. [It makes me wonder if he intended on telling me at all OR would fate bring us together just so i can bump into him and his expecting wife at Mothercare].
It's not like my response would have made any difference, he would have married her no matter what. However, one would think that being together for 8 years, i'd deserve to at least be told such news. And if not that, then isn't 12 years of friendship worth anything anymore?
We had always said, if either one of us were to get married, we'd tell one another. Obviously, that didn't matter anymore and perhaps my importance decreased over the years. But i understand that we hadn't exactly been in much contact lately but that was purely for my own sake to try and "let go" but still... i think i deserved more than a SMS.
Yes marriage is a HUGE commitment and definitely remains at the top of the list of "ways to let go of someone" followed by coming out of the closet and saying one is homosexual.
So thanks... thanks a lot, now i know where i stand. I'm just sorry that you didn't have enough respect for me as a friend and the decency to tell me in person.
But not because i'm a sadist and enjoy self sacrificing stabs to the heart, i agreed to see 2 of their church wedding photos that a mutual friend had.
...
And just how i remembered, his smile that i fell in love with so many years ago, showed an irreplaceable happiness. I must admit, he looked really good but why should he care? Here's hoping our time apart has banished his selfishness, not only for the sake of his new bride but for his unborn child.
But because there is love, i returned from lunch and was greeted by...
I won't lie and say i'm fine. I'm more disappointed than anything else.
Maybe it's the fact that he didn't have enough balls to pick up the phone and say, "hey Chris, guess what..." and instead chose to send a sms only after i sent him one. [It makes me wonder if he intended on telling me at all OR would fate bring us together just so i can bump into him and his expecting wife at Mothercare].
It's not like my response would have made any difference, he would have married her no matter what. However, one would think that being together for 8 years, i'd deserve to at least be told such news. And if not that, then isn't 12 years of friendship worth anything anymore?
We had always said, if either one of us were to get married, we'd tell one another. Obviously, that didn't matter anymore and perhaps my importance decreased over the years. But i understand that we hadn't exactly been in much contact lately but that was purely for my own sake to try and "let go" but still... i think i deserved more than a SMS.
Yes marriage is a HUGE commitment and definitely remains at the top of the list of "ways to let go of someone" followed by coming out of the closet and saying one is homosexual.
So thanks... thanks a lot, now i know where i stand. I'm just sorry that you didn't have enough respect for me as a friend and the decency to tell me in person.
But not because i'm a sadist and enjoy self sacrificing stabs to the heart, i agreed to see 2 of their church wedding photos that a mutual friend had.
...
And just how i remembered, his smile that i fell in love with so many years ago, showed an irreplaceable happiness. I must admit, he looked really good but why should he care? Here's hoping our time apart has banished his selfishness, not only for the sake of his new bride but for his unborn child.
**And like in some tragic, low budget soap opera, this is when the cheesy music fades in**
But because there is love, i returned from lunch and was greeted by...
5 comments:
this post made me cry for many reasons.
One reason (the most important one) is knowing that we have the best parents ever :)
The rest of your life is in front of you. Make the best of it with better people than him.
Love you
your parents are the sweetest...
Hang in there champion! the next chapter starts now!
Thanks.
sweet man!
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