Monday, July 23, 2007

Below standards

All it takes are a few words to ruin ones' day but more importantly it's how one interprets them that really matters.

I believe if one is meant to criticize another it should at least be constructive. But if negativity is all one receives, it won't be long until one starts believing them or at least sees some truth behind it. I'm sure it's been proven. Why else would there be so many people with huge complexes and self esteem issues to deal with?

Feeling as if i'm being picked on again is not only demoralizing but it pushes me to tears. The more incidences that i have like these, the more i start to lose faith in not only my capabilities but in my own future.

I didn't go through all that shit in my past to have it thrown back at me in a different form. I'm strong but i'm not THAT strong.

And it's true that not everyone is as social, confident and outspoken in real life as they may appear on screen. It just all depends on which angle you're looking from.

Yes i know we all have issues to deal with and fears to overcome.

But sometimes it gets a bit too hardcore to handle. And wanting to run home and cry does not mean that one is weak, it could just mean
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maybe it's time...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

hang in there mate! crying is good therapy, that's why i let you just sit there and let it out. sometimes you just can't avoid the shit when it hits the fan but... you give it a good cry, reapply your mascara and then you just let it go, cos even this shall...!

no matter how much a job seems to consume your life, never forget that it is still just a lousy job and you can always walk away... as one wise copywriter wrote: never confuse net worth with self worth!

Anonymous said...

hey chrissie,

you know that person is a just a big bully! He needs his monthly punching bag and rememeber this..never let these kind of people get to you..fight the urge to believe their words. YOu have talent if not why would he hire u in the first place? Get back in the ring and give the fooker a nice big fat lip..(show him chris!)THe more he push, the more you prove him wrong. give yourself time to reevaluate it and then strike when its hot! I know u can do it..i beleive in you lil fish!