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Pictures speak a thousand words. I can't be arsed to do a write up at this moment in time... so i've uploaded the photos for your viewing pleasure. Thanks and have a nice day!

[And for those of you who couldn't care less when it comes to giving credit to other sites after you rip images off them and/or like to "steal" paragraphs/thoughts and claim them as your own on your blogs, my question to you is, what is your view on "Plagiarism"?]

hello bed!

Just came back and i am SUPER tired! So before my forehead slams itself on the keyboard, i'm going to drag my semi-tanned body in the direction of my bedroom and HOPE that i'll pass out on my mattress and away from any sharp corners.

[to be continued...]

R5 [road trip] 2007

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"Everything's going to be Alright"

Alicia Keys - No One

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
Im telling you that

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
oh oh oh....

[source: Alicia Keys Online]

J.a// Thank you for the reassurance and for this song... m u... xox

I believe...

I found this statement profound, in fact it's so simple and relates to the Universal Law of Attraction. Yes i'm looking at Life in a whole new way. At the rate that i'm going, it may seem as though i'm one straw short of transforming into a nun [obviously one that doesn't follow true traditions per se and one that is adorned with ink]!

...When you desire with belief, it's happening. When you desire with hope, it's happening slower. When you desire with doubt, it's so slow, you might as well think about something else.

When you want something and you don't believe it, it's as good as not coming! When you want something and hope, it's coming -- but you gotta be patient. When you want something and you know it's coming, patience isn't a factor because it's coming quickly enough that evidence is showing up all over the place. So your optimism is easy to feel when you see evidence... [source]

But yes, i do believe that anything is possible at this point of time. Strange huh? But maybe it's Age doing its' thing or Maturity finally playing a dominant role.

And YES
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i have no doubt that we will be together in due time and for the first time in a very long time, i look forward to the future...

Cold turkey but not quite.

Go suck on a Chupa Chup!

I'm proud to say that i've survived not having a cigarette for 10 days. But i have one piece of nicotine laced gum left and i'm trying to see how long i can go without it. I'm trying to rearrange my lifestyle which i'm hoping will allow me to improve and eventually save money. [Not sure how that's working but if there's a will, there's a way].

Uh oh
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I can feel myself eye-ing my emergency sticks BUT don't worry, i also find myself turning elsewhere.

Bonus is, i find myself carrying less items nowadays, only problem is i constantly feel as if i've left something behind. And spend ages worrying that i've misplaced something. Yes i know that's why there's handbags but sometimes, carrying a bag is such a pain in the arse.

As for the cravings, well they're still there and i've noticed a slight dip in my concentration. But then again with the additional factors playing a vital role, no wonder i'm distracted. I'm not quite agitated but i do find myself in need to be doing something to keep me occupied. There are no serious mood swings. [Yay for those around me]. However, i have noticed a slight dull headache but i think dehydration could be the culprit and a missed dosage.

So yea... so far so good. *thinks happy thoughts*

My only worry is the upcoming R5 over the weekend. It's almost second nature to my existence to suck down a beer and have a lit cigarette held between my index and middle finger.

I. MUST. CONQUER. THIS. ADDICTION + I MUST NOT THINK TOO MUCH!

NOTE TO ONESELF: MUST remember to pack a shit load of gum and chupa chups.

A New Week... A New Chapter Begins

"The Kiss" Gustav Klimt ; found on myfreewallpapers.net

So i was thinking the other day how strange it must be for those readers who have been following my life to suddenly read about this complete turn around. Believe me, i'm still in shock and amazed. And for those who have only just begun reading, i'm sure they must think i'm some love-crazed-fool.
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Maybe.

Trust me when i say, i was never like this. If anything i was the one to banish all lovey dovey shit into the darkest corners. But then again, Never Say Never cause it's always bound to happen.

And although i may write as if it's all fine and dandy and the perfect Fairytale, believe me when i say it's much more complicated than it seems! Far more complex than anyone could imagine or desire. I find myself more cautious now with every decision made and constantly reminding myself to keep my head screwed on.

But you know what, in some weird, fucked up way... i'm willing to see past all the major obstacles and for once see the positive... even if it takes *coughs* years.

Yes i said years! WoooOOoooh... [THIS] must be serious.

But what happens between NOW and THEN is a mystery but we're willing to make it work. We WANT it to work and therefore if we BELIEVE that it can... it will. It just needs a shit load of dedication and patience. Time is both our enemy and friend.

So as we embark on this long-distance journey, it brings on a whole new meaning to Communication, Trust and Understanding. This is our time to sort ourselves out and prepare ourselves mentally, physically and emotionally for what is to come.

Have i gone crazy? Maybe. Am i happy? Yes.

Full circle.

I fell in and out of sleep today... as usual i've pushed my errands to tomorrow. I ended my long day yesterday watching DVDs. I fell asleep on my couch and it was an hour before dawn that the phone rang.

We spoke for more than an hour... Time seems to disappear each time and although i can never fully recall our conversations, i know each topic flows out of our mouths with ease and without hesitation. Eventually we said our farewells and for a moment i thought i was going to stay up since the sun was peeking over the horizon, but i ended up passing out on my bed.

The hours that followed had me dreaming of him and instead of him saying good-bye at the airport, it was me. My suitcase was filled with winter clothes and i remember i was crying in my dream. When i opened my eyes, i was still crying. I woke up sad and i could hear thunder in the far distance.

It didn't take long for me to get back to sleep and this time i dreamt i received a ring.

The most beautiful rich/dark royal blue sapphire gem surrounded by thin, white gold threads. The design was organic but simple yet intricate in design. I've never seen a ring like this, in fact i'm sure it's not even possible to create. Every angle you looked at it, it seemed to capture a different look. No doubt it was unique on all levels and i remember looking at it feeling overwhelmed with its' beauty. I remember feeling at peace with myself and what was to come...

Naturally, i googled it's symbolism.

And as predicted "To see a ring on your finger in your dream, signifies your commitment to a relationship or a successful new endeavor. It also indicates your loyalty to your ideals, responsibilities, and beliefs" and "To dream that you receive a ring, denotes that your suspicions and worries over you lover will end. You will come to realize that he is true to his heart and will devote himself to your interest" [source].

I then went to search the meaning behind the type of gemstone and apparently, "The sapphire symbolises loyalty, but at the same time it gives expression to people's love and longing". More fascinating was, "We associate this colour, strongly linked to the sapphire as it is, with feelings of sympathy and harmony, friendship and loyalty: feelings which belong to qualities that prove their worth in the long term – feelings in which it is not so much effervescent passion that is to the fore, but rather composure, mutual understanding and indestructible trust." [source].

Hmmm... i'm sure my subconscious is getting a bit ahead of itself but you know what, for the first time i'm not scared of the future and what changes lay ahead of me.

*Thinking Happy Thoughts*

Courtesy of Sound Oasis

Apparently last week's yoga class was concentrating on the solar plexus [which is the stomach region] and NOT the heart. So all that time i was directing energy to the wrong chakra... ALL THANKS TO EKAMON! Oh well... ehehehe.

Today's class was focusing on the heart and after a long day in the office, it was nice to end it on a happy note. I sent my LOVE to those who matter and visualised sending positive vibes all around.

And although i'm super tired now, here's me thinking happy thoughts and believing that ANYTHING is possible if you put your mind to it and BELIEVE in it.

Oh and by the way, to update you all on my quit smoking mission... it's been 5 days since i had my last cigarette.

*smiles*

Sweet Surrender

Sarah McLachlan - Sweet Surrender

I thank you for believing in me... and giving us a chance at Happiness. Clearly, "...at the beginning there has always been a dream and its for us to figure out how to make this dream real..."

[Sweet Surrender is about having people accept you for everything that you are, including all of the ugliness inside of you...two people accepting each other, totally." [source]]

GX Finale ~ 28 SEPT 2007

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Apologies for my tardiness but as you know i've been sort of preoccupied in the last 2 weeks.

Anyway, here they are and before i forget, MUCH LOVE to my BA boys and of course stoopidfish! Thanks to those who came and supported GX =)

I guess it's true all good things must come to an end. The end of one chapter... the beginning of another.

Stupid for You

Marie Digby - Stupid for You

You know where i stand and i've told you my case. We've been honest with one another from day 1 and really appreciate that. I can only hope it will get better, not only for you but for me... perhaps for us. I meant everything that i said which is why i believe what you say is true. We both agree that Only Time Will Tell but at the same time we both know a decision has to be made.

I can only wish for it to be soon rather than too late.

m u... xox

Habits vs. Health vs. Willpower

No thanks to my absent-mindedness and typical last minute ordeals, i forgot to pack my meds. I *thought* i put them in my bag but i'm guessing with the rat incident and running around like a lost chicken on Friday it slipped my mind.

So once Sunday came around my brain was starting to hurt [it was that squeezing effect that i can't tolerate and i already missed one dose] so i went through my bags to find that my nightmare was a reality. I rushed to the nearby doctor to get a prescription and after an hour and paying a consultation fee that was all of 5 minutes worth and requesting for 5 pills i didn't care, i simply rushed to the pharmacy eager to wave the piece of paper in front of the pharmacist.

Within the hour, the evil symptoms were gone and i was able to get on with my day as normal.

But whilst waiting my turn at the pharmacy i saw a leaflet for Nicotinell. A chewing gum which helps dampen nicotine craving. Yes, believe it or not as of Saturday 13 October i've decided to quit smoking!

*gasps*

A habit i've supported for 14 years. The last time i attempted this was during my uni days and i only lasted 5 days. After which i caved and the stress from uni work became too much and i felt the BITCH in me was unleashed.

And although it's only been 2 days, i'm happy to say i've only shared 2 cigarettes with my mom and have only inhaled a small amount of second hand smoke. So i think i'm doing well.

*pats her own back*

The quit smoking gum tastes like mint and apparently releases small amounts of nicotine. At the start it does taste a bit strange and like an instant shot to the brain it miraculously calms me down. But seeing that i'm not in my every day environment and i'm not accompanied with a night full of booze, i'm not sure how i will react. I guess i'll just have to wait till i get to that hurdle.

Proof that there's no harm in trying.

Mmmm ain't that a beauty!
Thanks to deerparkfamilydoctors.com

3-in-1

THURSDAY: I decided to try out Yoga. The last time i enrolled in any kind of fitness class was over 4 years and i was in Melbourne. And once i started work, my erratic time table and never ending deadlines meant it was nearly impossible to get to the classes on time.

Plus with events to attend to and promote for every other weekend only meant late nights, excessive alcohol abuse and no stamina to do anything energetic.

But times are changing...

FRIDAY: Every week the yoga class focuses on revitalizing and bringing energy to a particular chakra. Yesterday so happened to be the HEART. I woke up this morning with a few muscle aches. Who would have thought just a few stretches and breathing exercises could do so much. I'm actually surprised i was still able to touch my toes after so long!

I later spent part of the day with AnBloodyMumNoMore and SashaPau at Marmalade and met up with Ekamon after. After which it led me back into the office to do some last minute changes for a deadline.

But because of a recent rat invasion i was forced to inhale dried squid pieces whilst i did my work. I so happen to be sitting beneath the air-conditioner which apparently is the base where the rat comes in. Mmmm... lucky me!

And because it's a long weekend the Pest Control people have decided to only tackle our rat invasion AFTER the holidays. So there i was nicely doing my work and i hear the papers behind me squeeking! I think it's my imagination until i see a rat the size of 2-medium-sized fists run along the window ledge and tuck itself behind the bean bags. YES the very bean bags i often find myself taking short naps on!

I rang Ekamon and she came to the office. Armed with a long stick and broom, our mission was to uncover the rat. I tried my best to hurry up my work but couldn't help think about our office Rat/s.

I guess they/he'll be spending his holidays indoors. Hopefully by the time we all get back he hasn't made an nest under my table! Or has died in the trap from starvation!

12 OCT 2007: But to end this post, i'd like to send a hearty birthday wish to my mate, Supastar Didi aka DIDJITAL! May all your wishes come true and may this year bring you lots of laughter and smiles.

Waiting.

Sometimes Life throws you obstacles and it's her way of seeing how you react. I think as one matures one is able to see situations from a different perspective. Which is why i don't regret anything that i've done or wished anything to be different. Knowing that if i hadn't experienced my past, i would probably not be the person who i am today.

Which is why the next few months will be critical to my development and future. It all sounds so drama but in actual fact, it's not so bad.

I can't ignore Happiness since it's the one element that's been missing from my life for so long. We've agreed the feelings are mutual and there was an instant respect and deep appreciation. Which is why, i'm hesitant to let it slip away so easily. Unfortunately, the final decision is not mine therefore, i can only say how i feel and hope that my honesty and passion will help influence the final call.

And as usual so many things are going through my head... i just need to let Time do it's thing and continue to think happy thoughts. But as complicated as this is, i can only hope Patience stays the upper hand.

Determination is the key.

It was SuperHeroShoes' last day, so we decided to have farewell drinks at the nearby pub. I guess any excuse for a few drinks is better than none. And what would ordinarily be a few pints ended up being a bottle of whiskey.

The one thing about alcohol is it allows people to be at their element. Any reason to de-stress is good. [I guess any alcohol abuser would use that as an excuse].

Everything was going well until SuperHeroShoes decided to go to her car and whilst we continued on drinking she found her rear window was shattered. We all don't think it was a break-in since nothing was taken and our conclusion was it must be the pressure.

But considering the circumstances she was very calm. And once the police report was lodged and all that was sorted, Ekamon and i decided to have a bite at Coffee Bean. Which is where we ended up having a deep and meaningful conversation about Life, Relationships and Careers... [a common theme lately] and as one does on a Tuesday evening!

And i've realised so much has happened to me in the past 2 weeks, i blame the recent lunar eclipse!

And since then i've been forced to digest it all in one go. Fortunately, things are working out and i realise i'm entering a new phase in my life. A chapter that i'm not familiar with but at the same time am very open to experiencing... which is odd since "change" has never been something i've been very comfortable with.

However, this time i'm honestly making an effort to look at opportunities objectively. Whether it takes me anywhere i don't know but at the end of the day i know that i've tried. YES it is ALL ABOUT ME! And nobody deserves to be treated like shit no matter who you are. Previously i'd sit back and let time fly by and not give a rats arse but this time it's different.

Hmmm... *thinks*

So without sounding too philosophical and i'm able to stop myself from rambling on and on, i think i should head to bed.

Shoved in the right direction.

The Patience of A Saint ~ Neosynthesis.net/thisyearsgirl

*climbs down from cloud 9*

Today was one of those days that got me thinking about where i'm going with my life. It was a case of an all-in-one package; relationships, friendships, career and goals.

For as long as i remember, i've always been the type to put the needs of others in front of me... maybe it's a Pisces thing or it's my sick way of finding pleasure in making sure others are happy and in turn gives me satisfaction. But knowing that i put my own needs secondary makes me wonder how long i can last before i'm left trailing behind whilst everyone races ahead.

But the past week, although extremely short and unexpected, not only allowed me to feel an emotion that i thought i would never feel again but reminded me how important Respect and Appreciation really is to me and how easily they can be taken for granted. And no matter how much you try, you can't change anyone, even the most stubborn, unless they want to change for themselves.

Which makes me think sometimes it's easier to just sit back and let Life take it's toll especially if it gets really shitty. And that laziness only feeds my procrastination habit. But then there are those moments that happen unexpectly but because you can't be bothered to act upon it, you end up watching yet another opportunity slip away.

Obviously there are situations that you have no control of and it's absolutely insane to think that ANYONE would change their life's goals/plans for the sake of instant chemistry and mutual happiness.

But for the sake of my own sanity and knowing that by keeping ones' hopes up too high it often leads to disappointment [a road i've travelled many times before] therefore i keep my feet firmly planted in the ground [a rare occasion but it happens]. A part of me wants to keep believing that he is too good to be true and that he's what i need in my life right now.

I just need to trust my instincts and get off my arse and do something about it.

Which is why i'm not crippled with sadness because our lives run parallel to one another again and i'm forced to accept that this is how it was meant to be. But what we both need right now is to sort out our own lives [however long that takes].

If anything, i believe nobody can dictate anyones' Life unless you allow them to. I'm just hoping that he feels the same and doesn't make the same sacrifice that i've done before by forgetting about himself.

I just know meeting him again has shoved me in the right direction and i know what i have to do. It's only a matter of time and i know the time is near...

27 is my year.

My day was spent sleeping, doing laundry and lounging in front of the t.v. not much different from the weekends before [minus last weekend]. Except now i have a realistic goal to work towards...

I MUST START SAVING MY MONEY.

Yes, i know it's crazy to even think that just a one-in-a-million chance of meeting your past could change ones' life but it has.

And as usual, i called my mom to see how she was and told her in more detail as to what has happened in the past week. If anything, both my parents as well as my friends whom i've told are SO happy for me.

I can't help but wonder whether THIS is the prediction i made when i was a teenager, the one where i kept telling everyone that when i'm 27 something will happen... something good but wasn't sure what exactly it was. And i wonder whether THIS meeting is what i've been waiting for half of my life. Maybe it's a sign that there are better things to come afterall.

Coincidence? Maybe. Freaky? Damn right!

All i can say, is it's been way too long and perhaps this was how it was meant to be. Seriously, i can't get over how happy he makes me feel. Question is, now what?

Still lingering...

I woke up several times during the night thinking that he would still be here but the cold air next to me replaced his warmth. And as i pick up pieces that i left lying around during the week, i start to miss him a little more each time.

I remember catching him getting lost in his deep thoughts and when he looks back at me, it's so intense. His smile melts me and there is a chemistry that gets stronger each time.

But throughout the day i've fallen in and out of sleep and each time i see him appear in my subconscious and it's as if he never left. We talk and do things as if it were real, it's very strange but my only explanation is that because I missed my meds yesterday, my subconscious and reality seem to work hand in hand.

And if it weren't for the physical items he's left behind and the additional ink that rests on my skin, i would be certain the past week was a dream. I'm still riding on cloud 9 and spent most of the night telling my friends from my previous company about him and how our paths crossed.

Seriously, it seems almost impossible for anyone to have such an impact on another but it's a feeling i can't explain. I remember we had lengthy conversations even back when we were just 13. So in reality, we've been in one anothers' lives for 15 years and it took 13 years apart for it to be just right.

Uh-oh... i've turned into one of those mushy love stories!

I don't know what it is about him but he makes me so happy and he's everything that i've ever wanted in a man [yes i know i've said it before. But hey in my slight tipsy state, if i can say it to his father face on when we all went out to dinner on Thursday... there is no shame].

But i haven't spent this little time with any ONE individual and felt so sure about myself.

It's as if everything clicked and for that week we were invincible. It was only on Friday that Reality hit and there were disturbances that made us realise Time was not on our side. It was as if the universe was keeping us in check and with random things happening to us during the day and the night before, it so happened to have lifted the rose tinted lenses from our sight.

*Sigh*

BUT i'm not going to try and over-analyze, i'm just going to ride on this feeling for as long as i can. So as i sit at home surrounded by my past and accompanied by the soothing voice of Corinne Bailey Rae, i can't imagine what it MIGHT be like for him on the other side of the world and the issues he has to deal with concerning his past.

Life works in mysterious ways and only Time will tell. Patience is a virtue BUT i think it's still up to us to fight for what we want.

I know it's totally crazy but if i look back at every person i've met thus far everyone pails in comparison to him. I only wish for us to see one another soon and for us to be together because it's not every day that this kinda shit happens.

Overwhelmed

And just like [T H A T]... he's gone.

I've just come back from dinner with ex-colleagues and i had such a great time. But now i'm super dooper tired. I'm not surprised since the past week i've slept on average 3 hours a night, consumed numerous bottles of wine, beer and long island teas.

I think it's time to rest, collect my thoughts and wake up to a whole new different life.

[To be continued...]

13 years later

It's our last night together and as much as i try and shove the sad thoughts to the back of my head, they seem to creep up on me at various times during the day.

We had good intentions of waking up early to have breakfast before i headed off to work but we overslept... again. Our night was shared with DVDs, 3 bottles of wine, deep conversations and left over tuna + pesto with pasta. Perhaps the emotions are building up and once again it wasn't long until the tears appeared.

In fact it doesn't really matter what we do since just being with him gives me a sense of comfort. It's surreal and i will cherish what little time together we have for as long as i can remember.

There are no promises and neither am i hoping for anything. Time is unforgiving but i'm just grateful that he had enough guts to ask the girl who was about to cross the road whether she was the girl he once knew and shared a past with 13 years ago.

[Our last night...]

A whole new level...

Janet Jackson - Someone to call my Lover.

I think... i've found him.

Each additional hour i have with him, i can't help but tell him how great he is and if that's not enough to make anyone sick, he returns the complements and makes me feel so good about myself.

What we have is so sensual, personal and deeper than anything i had ever imagined or experienced. And i can honestly say, we are so very happy... i AM very happy. And believe it or not, i never thought it was possible... but he's perfect. Perfect for me.

Which could probably explain why i cried last night. [I blame the serious lack of sleep and pheromones cocktail]. But because our timing has been fabulous lately, MTV decided to start playing Christina Aguilera's Reflection at that exact moment.

OH MY FUCKING GAWD... seriously, talk about cheese factor.

[2 more nights...]
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*sighs*

Uncomplicated yet complex.

As the minutes turn into hours and finally into days, we are constantly reminded that Time is not on our side. I can honestly say, the past few days have been seamless. It seems so pre-mature yet the more we think about it, the more it feels so right. It's ridiculously cheesy and enough to make anyone spew out their last meal but it's the truth.

Nobody knows what may happen this time next week except that we'll both go back to our own lives on opposite sides of the world. And as sad as that may seem, it gives us a reason to see what this new chapter has installed for us as individuals and only Time will tell if our paths will cross again.

As my previous post states, i believe that everything happens in threes, so if it's meant to be, then we will meet again. And [RIGHT NOW], i can't imagine what it would be like to NOT have him in my life... be it a friend or more.

YES, as corny as it may sound, the past few days with him has shown me that wishes do come true and confirms that our past, both good or bad, makes us who we are today. Any different, i don't think we would have connected the way we have. And it only makes sense to cherish every moment that we have left.

And when we're together one word to describe it is; UNCOMPLICATED.

[3 more nights...]

Good Things Happen in Three's

I have a perfectly valid reason as to why i have not posted for the past few days. I still can't believe it.

I'll try and write this in the shortest way possible. I met someone.

Well actually we knew one another 13 years ago. We were friends in high school and i remember even back then we'd spend hours on the phone just talking about anything and everything. But then i ended up going out with his older brother. And the friendship between us drifted because i spent less time with him.

His older brother was my first love. My first partner. The relationship with his brother and i was not exactly one that my parents approved. But it lasted 9 months and we were in love.

Eventually, i moved schools and country. Which is when i embarked on my 8 year relationship with another guy.

So anyway, let's fast forward to the present. Friday night the boys had their last Global Xounds at Zouk. As usual i took photos and drank myself into a semi-drunken state. When it ended, Chook and i made our way outside and this is when it happened.

We were about to cross the road when this guy came up to me to ask me whether my name was Christina. He went on to say my surname [which not many people bother to or know how to pronounce]. He then continued to tell me who he was. At first i didn't recognise him. He was the same but different [if that makes sense]. It was so surreal to see him after so long, we hugged and lost ourselves in our chatter. It felt we were alone on the streets, for that moment everything went dark and it was just us.

Chook happened to be standing nearby witnessing this reunion and went off to grab a piece of paper to scribble my mobile number. [THANK YOU]. We eventually said our farewells and i came home still amazed that he was able to recognise me after so many years. My gawd... i look at photos from when i was 13... ewww.

It was around 5 in the morning when my phone rang. It rang several times and eventually i picked up and it was him. 57 minutes later we agreed to meet the next day.

I woke up around lunch time wondering whether what happened earlier had really happened. I spent the first few hours doing errands with Ekamon and then at 5pm we arranged to meet in the lobby at Shangri-La.

We talked about our past and updated one another of our lives and had a beer at his dad's place. We ended up at TGI Friday's and that's when i felt it. There was a chemistry that was obvious and we made it official that it was a date. 3 long island tea's and beers, we continued to drink at his dad's apartment.

When i look at him and he smiles, he makes me smile. I haven't felt like this in years. And when he holds my hand it's so sensual. The past few days, we haven't smiled so much and said the words AMAZING, GREAT and GOOD as many times as we've done.

I need to expand my vocabulary.

It's ridiculously lovey dovey and all that mushy shit that i always complain about but SERIOUSLY what are the chances of seeing your past and having such a connection? And my gawd, he is so damn cute. He looks like he's 19 but in reality he's the same age as me!

We're so comfortable with one another. He's so polite, he has manners, is grounded and is EVERYTHING that i've wished for in a partner. And i jokingly said, i should have been more specific for all those times i wished upon a star. I should have said 'he' should be in the same country.

Because he flies back to Germany on Friday.

I try to be realistic about this and know that it's silly to hang on. So we're making the most of our time together even if we only have 4 more nights and i have to work during the day. Perhaps 'someone' out there wanted us to meet again. I can't wait for the day to end because we get to see each other.

They do say, Things happen in Three's. Maybe it's fate...