Woke up this morning and it was pissin' down hardcore. I had heard my alarm go off several times and i woke up feeling a bit down. Uh oh... first sign that my moods have become unstable again.
Strange cause last night, my folks came to KL and we had dinner at The Mango Tree. My folks are friends with Ricky and we used to eat at his restaurant back when it first opened like 10 years ago. So for a moment there, it felt like old times, only difference was my sister wasn't seated next to me and we weren't giggling about something. But i hadn't seen my mom in a month or two, so it was good to see her. I think she just wanted to check out my new place, as most mother's like to do.
So anyway, i lay on my bed listening to the rain and then dozed off. But woke up soon after to realise that i was going to be late for work... AGAIN. It was nearing the time for my appointment and texted my colleague that i was heading to see my doctor at the Specialist hospital.
Made it there before my scheduled time and didn't have to wait. I was feeling exhausted, i couldn't believe how dead i felt. I felt like i hadn't slept in days but i've slept more now than i have in the past year.
Seriously, my short term memory is getting worse by the day. I told her that. And apparently, some of her other patients on the same medication as me, suffers the same side effects.
I told her about my episode of me missing one dose on Monday, so she recommends that i stay on this dosage for 2 months. Which is 3 months LONGER than i was originally thought i would be on... And only then, will i be able to half my dosage to 75mg... Sigh *fingers crossed that i'll be meds free ONE YEAR from now*
Anyway, she prescribed me Arcalion [SULBUTIAMINE].
Because i missed my appointment on Monday, some other fucker took my medication! So they have to order more and the worst part is, i took my last dosage today. The hospital was supposed to call me today to inform me that my meds have arrived... and they didn't. So i hope to god and all good things in life, that my meds arrive tomorrow cause i can foresee me having an anxiety attack of some sort... Or my brain will have a fucking mental breakdown.
One month medication + consultation + one week of new medication = RM711.19 poorer
Strange cause last night, my folks came to KL and we had dinner at The Mango Tree. My folks are friends with Ricky and we used to eat at his restaurant back when it first opened like 10 years ago. So for a moment there, it felt like old times, only difference was my sister wasn't seated next to me and we weren't giggling about something. But i hadn't seen my mom in a month or two, so it was good to see her. I think she just wanted to check out my new place, as most mother's like to do.
So anyway, i lay on my bed listening to the rain and then dozed off. But woke up soon after to realise that i was going to be late for work... AGAIN. It was nearing the time for my appointment and texted my colleague that i was heading to see my doctor at the Specialist hospital.
Made it there before my scheduled time and didn't have to wait. I was feeling exhausted, i couldn't believe how dead i felt. I felt like i hadn't slept in days but i've slept more now than i have in the past year.
Seriously, my short term memory is getting worse by the day. I told her that. And apparently, some of her other patients on the same medication as me, suffers the same side effects.
I told her about my episode of me missing one dose on Monday, so she recommends that i stay on this dosage for 2 months. Which is 3 months LONGER than i was originally thought i would be on... And only then, will i be able to half my dosage to 75mg... Sigh *fingers crossed that i'll be meds free ONE YEAR from now*
Anyway, she prescribed me Arcalion [SULBUTIAMINE].
Sulbutiamine is a new compound that has been described as being like Hydergine only better. It has been shown to facilitate wakefulness, improve long-term memory, speed up reaction time, decrease anxiety, and increase overall resistance to stress.Basically they're these orange, oversized looking m&m's in a blister pack. And will keep me alert, reduce the tiredness, will help improve my memory and what not. And in a week i have to go back and tell her how it is and if it works. I don't feel any different and it obviously hasn't absorbed in my system, cause i'm still tired as fuck. I guess that's when Patience comes into the picture.
Because i missed my appointment on Monday, some other fucker took my medication! So they have to order more and the worst part is, i took my last dosage today. The hospital was supposed to call me today to inform me that my meds have arrived... and they didn't. So i hope to god and all good things in life, that my meds arrive tomorrow cause i can foresee me having an anxiety attack of some sort... Or my brain will have a fucking mental breakdown.
One month medication + consultation + one week of new medication = RM711.19 poorer
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