Ended up going to the hospital to pick up my prescription but there was a mix up and they had ordered 150mg instead of two boxes of 75mg.
I already was agitated cause the taxi i took didn't know his way to the Specialist hospital, so after taking me round and round and me not being able to direct him. I just said it, if you don't know where you're going, just drop me off and i'll take another cab. I was already on the verge of blowing up into a million pieces but i kept my calm. Irritated and annoyed that i felt like i was going to cry at any point. I jumped into another cab and kept repeating, are you sure you know where it is.
By the time i got to the hospital, i was on edge of bursting into tears. Not over the cab driver, that obviously just wanted to take my money. But i suddenly felt how i did over a year ago prior to me being assigned a shrink... an emotional and anxious bitch.
I insisted, i HAD to see my doctor. And begged the nurses to locate her. I couldn't handle it and was convinced that the half dosage was responsible for the side effects and sudden emotional interruption.
Luckily she was there and she welcomed me to her office and i broke down in a thousand tears.
Apparently, the condition is known as Anniversary [something]... i've already forgotten the exact term used. She said that it's medically proven and there even has been a study on it... she's had 2 other patients like me. Well that's fucking great! I don't feel so lame. Basically it's when ones' subconscious is triggered off by something, usually that of a dramatic break up or past incident, the body records the date and some part of the brain goes a bit haywire.
NO i'm not going crazy... fuck this, seriously... i just want a normal life and move the fuck on!
Crying like a fucking baby, i couldn't pin point what triggered this mental breakdown. And yes, she said that it's best that i go back to my 150mg dosage. Be proud, I went for 4 weeks on 75mg and only in the past week or so, my body is starting to show signs of withdrawal; lethargy, low mood swings, lack of interest in previous activites, aches and brain issues.
Although i had taken my 75mg at lunch, she says that i can take my 150mg tonight [much like a booster shot of happiness], so i'm just glad that i saw her even though i'm now RM488.62 poorer. Fuck it, imma take the 150mg now.
I have to see her in a month... sigh.
I already was agitated cause the taxi i took didn't know his way to the Specialist hospital, so after taking me round and round and me not being able to direct him. I just said it, if you don't know where you're going, just drop me off and i'll take another cab. I was already on the verge of blowing up into a million pieces but i kept my calm. Irritated and annoyed that i felt like i was going to cry at any point. I jumped into another cab and kept repeating, are you sure you know where it is.
By the time i got to the hospital, i was on edge of bursting into tears. Not over the cab driver, that obviously just wanted to take my money. But i suddenly felt how i did over a year ago prior to me being assigned a shrink... an emotional and anxious bitch.
I insisted, i HAD to see my doctor. And begged the nurses to locate her. I couldn't handle it and was convinced that the half dosage was responsible for the side effects and sudden emotional interruption.
Luckily she was there and she welcomed me to her office and i broke down in a thousand tears.
Apparently, the condition is known as Anniversary [something]... i've already forgotten the exact term used. She said that it's medically proven and there even has been a study on it... she's had 2 other patients like me. Well that's fucking great! I don't feel so lame. Basically it's when ones' subconscious is triggered off by something, usually that of a dramatic break up or past incident, the body records the date and some part of the brain goes a bit haywire.
NO i'm not going crazy... fuck this, seriously... i just want a normal life and move the fuck on!
Crying like a fucking baby, i couldn't pin point what triggered this mental breakdown. And yes, she said that it's best that i go back to my 150mg dosage. Be proud, I went for 4 weeks on 75mg and only in the past week or so, my body is starting to show signs of withdrawal; lethargy, low mood swings, lack of interest in previous activites, aches and brain issues.
Although i had taken my 75mg at lunch, she says that i can take my 150mg tonight [much like a booster shot of happiness], so i'm just glad that i saw her even though i'm now RM488.62 poorer. Fuck it, imma take the 150mg now.
I have to see her in a month... sigh.
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