What If was not an option at the time.

Sometimes i wonder if she hadn't been so eager, would things have happened as they did? If she only knew what words to say now, their conversations would not lack substance. Whatever happened to the girl that had no fear, you know the feminine, bold and flirtatious one? Has she become more cautious or has she been weakened by eyes of the same gender?

What would have happened if she kept her mouth shut and played the statuesque? Would she have made the situation better, easier or let it just slip away? Could she pretend to be like everyone else, more specifically just like one? But her genetic makeup is what makes her and that mixture can never blend. If looks aren't just everything, then is her personality to blame?

If love hadn't made an early impact and left her without warning, would she know what she was missing if she hadn't tried so hard? What if she had paid more attention in French class or to those who really cared for her, would she be in this situation where she lacks those words of love?

Maybe it's easier to look back now and pin point what went wrong but there is no point in wishing if in reality she has none. The second she made her decision, she killed the curiosity instead of keeping the thrill of the unknown alive.